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Sunday, February 27, 2005

I think this is something I need to do

I have always been one of those people who has wanted to be a little bit of everything when I grow up, a doctor, a police officer, a politician, and most recently a fashion designer, which I am making happen......But one thing was always a constant: I wanted a career when I can help people in some way and possible lead them towards a Christian lifestyle. Whether it was by helping refugees in a foreign country by providing aid and religious options, or by teaching someone that you can be just as beautiful dressed modestly and that its what's on the inside that counts...Spirituality not sexuality. Either way I was going to help people and witness to God.

I know I may get a bit of crap for this, but whether God put it on my heart, or it is just my true desire, about 4 years ago I felt the call to go into the missions field, at the time I felt the army was the direction for this to go...Go to foreign lands as a medic and help the dying by giving them hope. But when that ended, I stood doubting if this was the path I was to take. I fully believe that God has a purpose for each person. He has a reason for creating us the way he did ( more of that in my free will post coming up). We have the talents and gifts we do to carry out a certain aspect of his work. I have been told 50 million paths to take by a hundred people, but most aren't gonna happen anytime soon, such as marriage or college, so I wonder where to even begin, Until I actually started watching the news from other places and thinking about it.

I have always wanted to help people in situations that they can't get out of. People who think they have no choice other than to die, the bottom of the barrel sort. I was thinking of maybe starting an small organization to build houses for people in poor places that have been devastated by disasters, like Mexico where if someone loses their shack, they are on the street. I actually know a few businesses locally that throw out scrap items that could be used to build these houses, but have no one to build them, so out the window went that plan also. Then one day a few months ago, while in the Doctors office, I read an article that really spoke to me. It was about Women sold into prostitution and sex slavery against their will. I had talked to one of my friends a few months earlier about helping dealers and criminals get off the streets, but I never thought about it. These stories made me cry. These women went through terrible ordeals and honestly couldn't get any help. Some are kidnapped and sold into sex slavery in different countries, some are lured to their destination thinking they are getting a god job, then find out upon arrival they will be used as prostitutes, one woman was sold into the lifestyle at age 9, had her first child at 13, and now has several incurable STD's because of something that was forced upon her. If these women go for help, they are normally turned away. If they have children and they go to the police or many organizations, they will be prosecuted and if they have children, they will be taken away. There are women's shelters for abuse victims, but in many places, they are so full, they refuse prostitutes. If they do manage to find someone to help them, they are treated as substandard people, they have no worth. So after a lot of thought, I think the one thing that is really in need is a place for these women to go. There are a few organizations out there, but not many, and although they do provide counseling, they can't provide what God can, No amount of therapy can truly make them feel renewed. I think these women need a place where they can go to be safe, to find jobs and housing to get back on their feet, and where they not only get their therapy from a psychologist, but from women who have been through what they have and found the comfort they seek in God. Let them know that they can start over and be clean, their sins are forgivable, and that there is always hope.

Saturday, February 26, 2005

Really awesome blog post!!

I came across a really god blog the other day and this post is so true! I will be linking amber lynn in my blog roll and hope to hear more posts like this!! :D

Friday, February 25, 2005

Virginity, sex, society, and why dating sites suck

I was joining one of those 99 point relationship and psychological profiling dating sites today when I noticed a flaw in their process. When they ask you about physical intimacy either your a porn star,one night stander, no drive or no drive and celibate......You cant be sexual or have a drive eventually and be celibate. I even got an email stating this and that I have a low sex drive and will be paired with people of the same drive level.... And that's compatible??? What ever happened to sex being something precious between a man and his wife and saving yourself meant you had self respect...Not a low sex drive? I guess it is low due to the fact it isn't happening, but if drive is so important its a factor, won't it still be a factor post marriage? And what about people who aren't virgins, but have seen the wrong they have done and are waiting until marriage to have sex again? They obviously know what their drive is and how it will be post marriage, so are they anti-sexual beings too?

Virginity in our society is treated like the plague anymore. Way back in the days of our Great grandparents, people lied about their lack of virginity so they wouldn't be considered slutty, now people lie about virginity to not be a prude. Plus, even if you don't lie about being a virgin still, some one will do you the favor. Take it from the queen of the virgin hoochie mama's here, I was a sophomore in high school, never even kissed beyond pecks, and I managed to sleep with the entire varsity football team, in one weekend, while home with the flu. The most recent case of virgin plague I saw though was on Mondays episode of "The Bachelorette" where two men who are virgins were treated as if they were some sort of sideshow freaks. Everyone wonders how in the world a man can be celibate at 25. When one man commented he was in love with his future wife and was saving everything for her, he was met with a dialogue of:
host: are you getting married?
guest: no
*****random "OMG your a sideshow freak" looks from everyone******
the same man was also seen as a reject because virginity = so horrid he cant get any action
yes, maybe he should have clarified, but still the whole show both virginal men were seen as weirdo's.

As one of the many people who have made mistakes and are trying to save what's left for marriage, the virgin thing was a piece of cake....Try telling a man who wants to get frisky and knows you have done stuff your saving yourself and see what happens.... It's like an automatic break up right there. If your still a virgin and he's a decent guy, he will respect your wishes and feel like a scumbag. If your not, you think he isn't good enough for you and your a liar. Most people in general, even some Christians, can't quite grasp the concept that in Christianity, God forgives our sins, whether lieing, stealing or even fornication. These people forget that sin is sin, and part of forgiveness is giving up the wrong that you have done. When I find a guy who understands this and meets the checklist.....I'm getting married...Until then....I'll just wait.

Thursday, February 24, 2005

I drove today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I never realized how fun driving was until i had been away from it for 2 months. I got to drive yesterday and it was so exciting. I think the excitement was also partially due to the fact it probably wasn't a good idea to do it either, but hey, when your homebound...anythings a thrill!

Wednesday, February 23, 2005

You never know who you can lead to God

I found this interesting. After reading why he left the band, It made me think about how a lot of people won't witness to people because they assume they are unreachable. I will be honest, this is one case where I would assume that, but he changed his ways. If a rock star can do it, anyone can!:)

Tuesday, February 22, 2005

The war hits home...But just sort

Our town, being a large percent military, has just now received its first casualty...Sort. The man grew up here, but left in his early teens. He and his family didn't live here anymore, but he still came from here. I can't even imagine how horrible it must be for all of the families who have lost people in the war. What thoughts are running through their heads. The closest I have ever came was about a year ago, when I thought my ex had died in combat. My best friend had called me that evening because she was watching the news, and they had just announced that three soldiers out of my ex boyfriends unit had been killed in action and several others injured, and one fit his description, but names couldn't be released on the air, you had to go to a site. Even though we weren't together, I had loved him at one time and checked the site daily to make sure he was ok, he was, but I couldn't help but thinking how the families of these soldiers killed in combat feel. I sat there just moment earlier, regretting things that had happened between us and feeling so horrid, but imagine having the person you love more than anything, the person you planned on spending the rest of your life with torn away from you. That is a feeling I would wish upon no one, and wish could be prevented :(

Sunday, February 20, 2005

To pierce or not to pierce: Trends, clothing, and does it really matter to God?

I have heard this all of my life "your body is a temple, so we are not to damage it with piercings and tattoos" but here is one point, are all of the women mentioned in the bible unworthy to God, because they all had piercings? Nose rings, ear rings, and a lot of other things people say are rebellious or inappropriate were fashion staples for women in the bible, yes, there were trends and fashion even in the bible days. I have been putting a lot of thought here lately into what kinds of fashions God would want us to wear....I know, your thinking "God doesn't care what we wear as long as our naughty bits aren't showing and no one really cares" but It really is important. It even says in the bible that we are to maintain a modest appearance... Amish modest, NO, but still modest.
Speaking of the Amish, they truly baffle me. I do not see where they get that every single modern thing is evil, here lately its been saving their butts! Plus, the clothes... They are impractical and have no biblical basis. I can see why they want them covering as to be modest, but in the biblical era, the only reason why they didn't wear brightly colored clothing was because they couldn't afford the expense of dyes, and the ones who could afford it, did. Most women's clothing was adorned with COLORED embroidery which was another big trend for them.
Back to the first thing. Another thing that the bible says is that men and women are to wear different clothes and that they shouldn't dress like the opposite sex, but where is the line for this? Do they mean individual pieces or the whole look? Is wearing a boy's wifebeater with a girlie pin breaking this rule? Or what about tailored suits? That's what I would really like to know.

Thursday, February 10, 2005

Hiding Jesus: Why peer pressure is a huge factor

This man was beaten half to death, thorns were crushed into his head, was nailed to piece of wood by his hands and feet, tortured and left hung to die to pay for things that WE have done, not him. But then many of us cant even bear to say his name in public or admit that he is our savior....Unless it's cool at the moment. The most obvious examples are in the celebrity world, especially at awards shows. At the appropriate moment, some may thank God and Make some sort of spirituality apparent, but then, comes the afterparty. I'm not saying they have no morals or don't believe in God or Jesus as our savior, but they spend the night drinking, partying and having sex with random people....Spend awhile wearing overly revealing clothing, cussing like sailors...Maybe write a few songs about killing and then having sex with more random people... Spend a couple days preaching how they are good, God-fearing people...To me, that isn't the lifestyle of someone who truly wants to follow God, But celebrities are not alone.
The commercial world is far worse! This past Christmas is a prime example. Most larger corporations and retailers tried to ban saying "merry Christmas" because it may offend someone. I think it should be up to the person what they say, and if a customer is offended by someone saying "Merry Christmas" to them, they need to get over it. I have been to stores before where people wished me a Happy Hanukkah and I just replied "happy Hanukkah and a merry Christmas ". I wasn't offended, It just showed me the sales clerk was feeling the spirit of her holiday. There is nothing wrong with telling your customers "happy holidays" to be all inclusive holiday wise, but its a little far to ban the word Christmas, especially since they didn't try to ban Hanukkah, kwanzaa, or any other winter holiday. This was a really tacky ban, but some good came of it. A lot of the store owners in my town made their thoughts of it apparent on signs in the windows and on their marquee boards. Everywhere you went you were greeted by a sign occasionally stating "come on in and we will wish you a merry Christmas" or "if you have a problem with the phrase 'merry Christmas', we will be ending our holiday season Jan. 2nd". But then, I live in one of the very few towns that still have an actual Christmas parade and are allowed to sing songs about God in Choir.
Many Christians (yes Christians) have a problem with the God factor. It's not that they live a sinful life, or that they don't want to follow God's word, but they only want to admit they are Christians when it is cool. One good example is the classic high school "look at the nerdy bible thumper" example. When placed in a crowd full of people picking on the kid in the hall carrying a bible, most people won't try to stop it...Why? Not only would you have to stand up to friends, but you maybe called out yourself. Then there is the "you go to church where?" thing. I have actually had guys dump me and lost friends over where I went to church! My denom was weird, or my church was small, thus "uncool". Fellowship is one thing, but last time I checked, going to church was about worshipping God, not to be seen at "the cool church". Another thing is churches are trying to get people,especially youth, to witness to people and get them to go to church with them. When I in youth and my youth pastor told me to ask people to go to church with me, I looked at him like he grew a second head! Just walking up to people and asking them to go to church is super uncool in high school. After a few of my friends asking me to go with them, I saw that it didn't have to be social suicide. You can work things like personal and religious beliefs, advice, and even an invitation to church into a normal conversation without forcing it! There is nothing socially suicidal about being someone people can talk to .

Wednesday, February 09, 2005

Why V-day should be banned!!!!And not just because I'm single!

Yes, its the time of year again. Most people think that I feel the way I do about valentines day because I'm usually single and don't have plans...I don't have plans not because I can't get a date, but because I truly loathe the holiday. To me, valentines day is just a commercial holiday to get people to buy things supposedly to show people that they love them. I'm not questioning that the gifts were bought with love, but I would rather get a gift expressing love because my man was thinking of me sporadically, not because its an holiday and he feels like he has to. Also people seem to get obsessed with what they got as a symbol of how much that person loves them, but it doesn't work that way. The guy who spent the most on me was the one who loved me the least. Also, a lot of guys I know use it as a Make -up holiday. They show no affection all year except for v-day then use it everytime they are accused of being uncaring."ya, I be a jerk today, but do you remember last vday when I bought you diamonds and stuff?" It's awful!
I think valentines day shouldn't be a holiday, I think we should take time out everyday to think about, and express our love for one another.

Friday, February 04, 2005

It's a scary thought.....

if you look at what we use on a daily basis and what it does.


I received my starter kit yesterday, so i am now officially a beauty consultant, atleast until I can go back to work (i dislocated my hip 2 weeks ago).
The company suggests i try out all of the products before i sell them, and most I have used regularly at some point, except for the anti-aging treatment because I am allergic to the special chemical that makes their treatments effective. After packing my bag, I went to the bathroom to wash my face and decided to wash a handbag that I wanted to carry. I used the facial cleanser i have been using regularly to wash my face (not the brand I'm selling btw) and was horrified at what was happening.....it took the iron soot from work off of my face and off of the bag, but it also took some of the color off the plastic! it also changed the texture a bit!!!! To me, this is a scary thought, if it can damage plastic, what is it doing to your face?!? I am scared of dipilatories of any type also for this reason. I used one of the bladeless razor kits and i followed the directions perfectly, I actually cut the time in half not due to effectiveness, but because it burned a hole in my leg!(i think Chris W. saw the damage) My bathroom floor has battlescars from this product! There are a million other products out there like this...we don't really think about it when they work right, but some seem just dangerous!

Thursday, February 03, 2005

maybe we should send mini boxes of lucky charms with out kids to school

Japan snaps up 'lucky' Kit Kats

Kit Kat is a best-selling sweet around the world
Students in Japan have reportedly caused sales of Kit Kat bars to soar, by adopting them as lucky charms.
The name of the chocolate bar resembles a Japanese expression - "kitto katsu" - used by students to wish each other luck before exams.

The phrase has been translated roughly as: "I hope you will win."

Kit Kat has introduced a range of flavours designed for the famously sweet-toothed Japanese market, including green tea flavour.

Other variations include passion fruit, white chocolate, and lemon cheesecake.

Determined pupils

The multinational food company Nestle, which makes the bar, said it had noticed a surge in demand.

"We're finding that parents are buying them for their children for exam days," Yuko Iwasaki, a spokesman for Nestle Japan, told Britain's Daily Telegraph newspaper.

"But also some determined pupils are buying Kit Kats for themselves as a sort of reminder that they are really going to give these exams their best shot," he added.

The Kit Kat was invented by Britain's Rowntree confectionery company back in 1935, but until 1937 was called the Chocolate Crisp.

The Kit Kat name is thought to derive from a club of the same name in 1920s London.

It has long been the most popular chocolate bar in the UK.


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