My thoughts on life, relationships, and everything else!

Friday, October 21, 2005

I am Definitly out of the technology loop...

I was reading on a blog today about someone having a troll problem with their blog...My question is: what the heck is a troll?!? Then, I went to leave a comment, asking what a troll was, and it said only certain people can leave comments. The blocking doesn't bother me because I think I understand why, If a troll is what i think it is, but I didn't even know you could do that! Man, I could have really used that back in the day when I was using the grey, blue, and pink sporty format!! Mr. mean chinese man, I laugh at you ... BWAAAHAAHAAA!!!! Plus I have about one blog on my blogroll to every 5 on other peoples blogs since I don't really have a chance to browse one unless it is pointed out to me, so If you know of a good one I might like, let me know, or if you know what a troll is... I thought they were just green ugly monster things!?!

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

My Scarlet Letter

I have never read the book "The Scarlet Letter", But I do know the main thing is that a young woman has to wear a bid red "A" on her chest to stand for adultery so that the whole world would know, and shun her for it. I think we all kind of have that scarlet letter to one extent or another, and mine is an "S"....For Slut.
I am not really one. I don't sleep around, I haven't been with a lot of guys, I have never cheated or done anything that most women get the title for doing. I don't dress provocatively, so why did I get this letter? I am a Christian without my virginity and people unfortunately know it. I didn't tell hardly anyone at first, But somehow (most likely my ex) everyone found out, and so instead of dwelling in my guilt, I decided if God could forgive me, I could forgive myself, and use something bad for good. It seems weird, but it is a lot easier to talk to people about things if you can relate to them, and honestly, so many people feel that since they have done so much in the past, they cant go back, and they can. They can be washed clean by the blood of Christ, and they don't really realize that because they feel like no one around them had been through or experienced things they have. But the truth is most people have, and are so ashamed of their fall into temptation, the don't say anything. My though is: Temptation is kinda like a dangerous, gigantic cave full of bears. You can easily fall in, and never come out in one piece.... But if you manage to survive and find the right way out, you have a little wisdom to share and a quite a story to tell. So go ahead, put a giant "S" on my forehead, and let me tell you how to erase the letter on your heart.

Monday, October 17, 2005

Doctors

Sometimes I wonder how some people get to become doctors.I have went to both some of the most highly revered, and the little known, and believe it or not, some of the best in my opinion are the latter. For example. a couple weeks ago I want to a liitle known Doctor, who in 10 minutes was able to diagnose a problem that has took 6 years for anyone to even guess at. Most people upon hearing this shake their heads and say "No, he must be a quack" but seriously, he did. Even some top specialists swore it was one thing, suggested major surgery, and ruled out me having children. This doctor did a check up, ran tests and come to find out, it is my intestines ( which i had a similar prob before) gave me some pills, and I haven't had a problem since. the other thing that worries me is nurse practitioners. I hopefully may oneday take this route, but i hope and pray that i am more knowledgeable than many i have came across. I have went to a few who you would never be able to tell that they were not top rated specialists.thay were knowledgeable and thorough (which is my goal) but others seriously make me wonder. I actually went to one where I had more medical knowledge than she did sometimes and had to correct her more than once. She even went as far as to tell me that when a major, common medication she herself prescribed for me wasn't doing what it was supposed to , that it's ok if it doesn't work, it's working. my question: how can it be working IF IT'S NOT WORKING?!? It's like saying "You know that blood pressure pill you have been taking? Well, It's not lowering your blood pressure, and it might cause some medical issues, but that's ok, it's working" she was also really judgemental and made me feel like that worst christian ever. I made the mistake of not saving myself and totally regret it, and everytime I see her, she say's "God's way is the best way, Abstinence is the only option, you should have followed that" yes, I agree, with the first part, but she acts like It was an unforgiveable sin, or that I am wearing a huge scarlet S on my forehead for SLUT! ( which is my next post, but i will finish this one first) anyways, I just had to vent.

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

I got in!!!!!

I got the phone call first thing monday morning...I GOT IN~!!!! too bad my internet wasn't working to post about this and when it finally was, blogger wasn't. Oh, well...

Sunday, October 09, 2005

They really need to create an international size chart...

Because shopping for pants is evil! I went shopping for some slacks for work and was both thrilled and horrified. I am still trying to lose my last 5 or 10 pounds (as i have posted before, I used to be pretty large) and went through this pretty hopefull. In one store, I am a 6, another a 4, another, a double- digit size so large I won't even say what it is (big enough to be considered plus-sized). And right now my 36" rear is sitting in a pair of size 1's, which is pretty much impossible in most stores. I understand everyone has a different body type so clothing will fit differently, but not the difference between a 1 and a 13!(My biggest size experienced was bigger than this, but i still ain't saying it!!!) Gap actually solved the body type crisis in their stores by offering 3 cuts of the same pant, one for boy shapes, one for curves, and the classic cut they have always gone by, and offering several different lengths. so, at Gap, a size 10 will wear a 10, no matter what her body type or height...genious!!! Just imagine if all stores did this and all had the same size chart! Personally, my vote is for the size chart ofering the smallest size!

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

Kate Moss, cocaine, and the unveiling of the true fashion world

People are making a huge deal of the recent video footage of Kate Moss snorting a line of cocaine at a party, but they have been overlooking the problem for decades, why act like it's a big surprise now? Many fashion houses are claiming that it is because they don't care what their models do as long as they are not seen doing it, as not to tarnish the houses image, but you can go backstage of many a show and see models ( both legal and underage) doing drugs and excessively drinking to "perfect their walk". I think if the rest of the world adopted the philosophy of a few of the modeling agencies in Israel, we would all be better off. With these top agencies, a model has to maintain a healthy weight and BMI, not participate in anything unhealthy and they encourage a good spiritual life, unlike our agencies where your spirituality (unless hugely mass marketable:ex. kabbalah) is discouraged and you're to be a skeletal, emotionless, atheistic mannequin basically. It's really sad, especially since these are the people our kids look up to. So my opinion is, rather than pointing fingers at Kate Moss and saying "HOW DARE YOU MAKE A MISTAKE!! I DON'T CARE IF YOU GET HELP!" (which if she does, I find it completely admirable) I think people should be more worried about the drug problem itself and try banishing it, not the people willing to speak up.